If you've read my "How i spent my holiday", http://bloodredscarx.blogspot.sg/2017/01/how-i-spent-my-holiday.html you would know that I can upgrade to Sec5 even though its quite dangerous but at least I can get into it. But because i'm scared of O's as there's practical exam (Which i scared the most) and part of the reason is that i'm lazy to study so i choose to go ITE which is a longer route to end my educational life.
It doesn't make sense though because ITE is not as easy as you thought it is. You can't have fun as you have tons of projects and work to be done and stress about so it has no difference whether you go Sec5 or ITE. If i can choose again i would rather listen to my parents suggestions of going to Sec5. One more year of torture is better than 3-4 more years of torture. As your results kind of decide how long you have to study in ITE. I personally hope to get out of there as soon as possible because its definitely not the route i wanna take.
Obviously i did cry for the first few months when thoughts like "Where am I now?", "How come i'm in ITE now?" etc pass through my mind. I even thought of going back to Sec5 just like how some people came to ITE during the first few weeks. I even thought of going back on 2018 but the worst news is that the syllabus had changed so it doesn't work. During the first few months of ITE, my closest friend had been hearing me saying "i wanna go back sec5.", "i regret coming here.", "I 16 points but i end up here." etc.
At that point of time, my tears seriously fall for free. I don't cry mainly for that decision but also the guy that i have a crush on because i think a lot lol. Although he is the only reason that i'm glad i'm in ITE, that don't really "win" the sadness.
Well, we all know quotes, positive and negative. Quotes like "Do not give up." etc and lyrics that usually don't mean anything to me suddenly hit me so hard at that point of time. I even cried in bus for a few time because damn lyrics and songs. I remember one time when i'm on my way to school and a song + thoughts hit me then my tears start to fill up my eyes. I quickly rub my eyes so the tears w. When the next sad song is playing for a few seconds, i quickly choose a high/happy song because i know more tears is coming down.
I guess i'm feeling better now because i can write this blogpost without dropping a single tears or feeling pain in my heart. But for the guy that i have a crush on, i think i should just give up because there's no point/reason holding on when he don't even know my existence.π£
It doesn't make sense though because ITE is not as easy as you thought it is. You can't have fun as you have tons of projects and work to be done and stress about so it has no difference whether you go Sec5 or ITE. If i can choose again i would rather listen to my parents suggestions of going to Sec5. One more year of torture is better than 3-4 more years of torture. As your results kind of decide how long you have to study in ITE. I personally hope to get out of there as soon as possible because its definitely not the route i wanna take.
At that point of time, my tears seriously fall for free. I don't cry mainly for that decision but also the guy that i have a crush on because i think a lot lol. Although he is the only reason that i'm glad i'm in ITE, that don't really "win" the sadness.
Well, we all know quotes, positive and negative. Quotes like "Do not give up." etc and lyrics that usually don't mean anything to me suddenly hit me so hard at that point of time. I even cried in bus for a few time because damn lyrics and songs. I remember one time when i'm on my way to school and a song + thoughts hit me then my tears start to fill up my eyes. I quickly rub my eyes so the tears w. When the next sad song is playing for a few seconds, i quickly choose a high/happy song because i know more tears is coming down.
I guess i'm feeling better now because i can write this blogpost without dropping a single tears or feeling pain in my heart. But for the guy that i have a crush on, i think i should just give up because there's no point/reason holding on when he don't even know my existence.π£
I hope after saying all these out, i'm feeling a bit better.
There's regrets in life but just accept it and move on.π
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